Some Thoughtful Reflection On my First Week as a Provider Delilah Bleu

Last week marked my first week as a provider! Wow so much has happened in that short time. I wanted to put some thoughts down. I remember all the work and question I had before I started. I remember the wonderful advice and patience of the provider that helped me understand what I was attempting to do. I remember setting the date on humpday (Wednesday) and finding a lot of amusement in it. I remember being terrified that no one would see me. lol I remember how amazed I was to find out that you all are human and the ones I have had the privilege to see are wonderful interesting ones at that. I remember having so much to do that at times I was sure I would never get the opportunity to open a door. I remember what it felt like to get my membership at the tanning salon something I had wanted to do for so long and paying for it myself. I remember sitting down at 13coins by myself to celebrate my IPO. I remember so many things. These are just the ones I want to share.

I have learned that this is a lot of work no matter how much fun you are having doing it. I have learned that kindness wins over hate. I have learned that boards and people can be political. I have learned that it is best to ignore then to react. I have learned that scheduling is the hardest thing in the world for me. I have learned that your day is how you make it. If you are happy those around you tend to be as well. I have learned that owning up to a mistake has its rewards. I have learned that I love myself and to give myself time to be a 20yo woman. That my well of giving and emotions needs to be replenished for me to be good at this. I have learned that housekeeping are very hard working people and treat them with kindness and generosity. I have learned that I am independent and on my own and doing what I need to for the ones I love. I have learned that I am beautiful and desired; a first for me actually. It is something that I am trying to process and be positive about and not let it get to my head. I have learned that an email or tweet from someone can so make my day. I have learned that this community provides a very much needed service.

I am thankful for all who have helped me finish an amazing week. Providers and Friends have all been amazing and very helpful and supportive. The advice, support, and encouragement has been amazing and so very appreciated. I am thankful that my angel watches over me and takes care of me when I enter uncharted waters. I am thankful for the wonderful friends I have met and the ones I have yet to meet. I am thankful that there are boards that allow us to be safe. I am thankful for the criticism and instruction. I am thankful for being Delilah Bleu.